When I question the question, no answers come & time keeps slipping away...
When I trust in Lord and seek His might, all answers come running my way...
I don’t know if you have experienced it but I have experienced it many times.
Questions, difficulties, tough times – call it whatever you may, each one of us faces situations like these... moments of dilemmas, moments of fear and indecision… it is quiet a common occurring in all of our lives so no point discussing it….
So what is the real point… maybe it is about “how we are” in these moments… or maybe where we focus – is it on the issue or difficulty concerning us or the actions we can take or even some thing else… I want to share my two cents about this “some thing” else I have felt…
Even before I take any actions, there is a space I find myself in… to make it easier for myself I always call it my conversations with Him… some may also refer to it as praying or seeking Him… again whatever we may call it, it’s a space when I connect with Him… and connect in a way that is way beyond any explanation… some times I cant even feel myself or my body… just focusing on Him and His name… Surrendering… letting go of every thing – all pains, worries, distress, and fears… every thing about yesteryears and the impending future… and I cry out …
Some thing similar happened over the weekend on my trip to Agra… it seemed as if some thing evil was at play… one after the other there were difficulties… right from unexpected fog to road mishaps to jams on a national highway to being lost in a dirt track with no sign of human race around and being stuck on last lane where the road was slanting and my car was standing at 45 degrees… that one moment especially is some thing I will never forget… all blood rushing in my head or out of it… could hear my pulse at the back of my head with an unbearable pain… paralyzing fear of making just one mistake and loosing… life… especially of those 2 whom I love the most in my life and who I want to do everything to save from every thing… I felt responsible yet so weak… and that was the moment of surrender when I let the pain and anguish be and just forged ahead with only Him in my focus…
Trust me when I say that I feel blessed and saved… To be alive after a seemingly unending ordeal … which came to an end because He wanted that way…
Thank you Lord for being with me at every point on that road… thank you for carrying me when I thought I can’t walk (or drive) any more…
